Firstly it’s important to know that I see most types of nervous breakdown, schizophrenia or mental disillusionment from a spiritual perspective. A type of spiritual emergence and/or psychic attack from trauma. Most cases but not all.
Before my own shake up for a wake up in 2018– involving a pharmaceutical and illicit substance – I had many interactions working with those in overwhelm and mental breakdown.
I worked as a carer for many years, where I observed patients with paranoid schizophrenia.
For 3 years I ran retreats for people of importance going through nervous breakdowns. I worked briefly as a muse for successful rockstars on tour.
I used hands on healing and medicines with many refugees, in the field, in Serbia with severe mental and physical trauma.
More recently in Ibiza I treated many clients dazed and confused after drug induced psychosis, namely after ayahuasca ceremonies. I had a beautiful kundalini experience during my yoga teacher training in 2013 and have been on a spiritual journey since, delving into breatharianism/pranic living for a whole year and many other fascinating science breaking phenomenas. So when I had a breakdown I thought that I was well equipped with the tools necessary to treat myself. Little did I know what I was in for! And just how redundant my naturopathic and nursing degree would be.
My world fell apart financially and intellectually. It took me 18months to fully recover. I ditched the medical model that I was using for my clients and increased the dose by x10 for most of the nutritional medicine.
I had my brilliant P.A clear my diary and schedule all of the Naturo therapists that I was using on my Naturo retreats, for myself. I cocooned myself away from wifi, in a friends home in the countryside. Where I spent every day on the ground, in the earth with my bunny rabbits. Real ones, not in my head ;).
I don’t remember the first 3 weeks they are a blur. I have audio recordings that I made every day however, to measure what I was going through. Although I was hazy and in and out of realities I knew that I had to do everything to stay grounded. Enough to record and measure what I was experiencing on the daily. My biggest fear was not losing my mind or even the scary visions. It wasn’t that I could hear other peoples thoughts and see faces of their past lives. My greatest fear, that stays with me today, is losing my connection to source and to the earth. Disconnection is insanity. I was disjointed and afraid but somehow I knew that this was just my journey right now and it wouldn’t last.
After 8weeks of my Naturo medicines and naturo therapy I was sound enough to leave Ibiza. I sought out a Tibetan buddhist teacher in Norway and commenced on a 6month journey to move towards the rest of my life. The rest I am saving for one of the many books that reside within. For now I hope to advise and support as many people as possible with the Emergence Protocol that uses the Naturo Method 3 practitioner approach.